ever since school started, i've neglected remembering my dreams and my progress to achieve the lucid state. However, after settling in, i've noticed that my dreams have stuck with me when i wake up.. Last night, I slept early and dreamt an aweful lot.
The strangest part was that it was alternating dreams of good and bad. actually i don't remember any of teh good ones anymore.. except that one of them was sexual haha yea i'll classify that as good. anyway, the bad ones were horrifying and left me in a heart pounding state when i woke up from them. The first bad one was of me in my house tealking to my brother.. then my mom shouts 'they're coming' and we had to brace ourselves as thieves tried to break into our house. While everyone was busy, i was out checking the back door. I remebmer grabbing a flourescent light tube and a metal pole and going to my back door to see someone shuffling to get in. Cover the door? or hit him as he comes in? i didn't know what to do and the adrenaline was high. I woke up soon after.
The second horrifying dream was that someoen ran into my room and grabbed me in my bed.. well more like a really strong cuddle. in my mind it was my roommate.. i was very scared and had no idea why he was doing that. i felt very tired and didn't want to move. my mind wouldn't let me move.. but i was trying to hit him really hard in the face to get him off me. i woke up shortly after that again horrified and pissed off that my roommate would do that to me.. it felt so real.
I then dreamt that i confronted him about it the next morning and proceded to continue with my regular day activiies.. i thought i had actually woken up and gone to school, but I was still sleeping in bed. luckily at this point i was on my 11th hour of sleep so i woke up an hour before my alarm clock went off and got ready for school for real..
Looking at my progress to achieve the lucid state, i don't think i'm really moving all that fast. the fact that i am remembering my dreams and more of them seems a little good, however, i'm still not able to recognize signs that i am actually dreaming. I am however, experiencing my dreams a lot more vividly so maybe it is a step forward from when i started.
